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A random spurt of inspiration about nothing inspired by driving home in a blizzard

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skib
, 10-11-2009 at 12:27 AM (1915 Views)
Snowflakes swirl at the windshield. Lights flash beyond my range of vision, in a world beyond what I can see. The rumble of the engine hums in my gut and my brain, the unchanging presence constant in every corner of my tiny portable universe. My entire world is the cold wheel in my hands and the resistance of the throttle. I know there is life out there. I just can’t see it. I don’t want to see it. All I want is the constant yet ever changing blur of the oncoming storm. Nothing really matters, here within my own little atmosphere of creation. Within the layers of my imagination, I am lost in a world of chaos. A thousand stories play out on the waves of my creation; a thousand roles floating about in my head weave a cloak of fantasy around me. I have pushed my most pressing problems from my mind- I am not in a class I don’t understand learning things far, far beyond me. My truck isn’t a POS and threatening to end up in an overhaul garage. I’m not running low on money with no job. I am not lonely or missing my few best friends. None of this exists when I pull on my cloak of fantasy. For the fifteen minute drive home, the cloak takes care of my every need, fueled by the blizzard outside and my small boy sense of wonder.
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  1. TheFifthElement's Avatar
    Well you can certainly write skib, you really pack a punch with this short piece. If it's a reflection of how you feel I hope the process of writing it down was cathartic. You strike me as very perceptive. I hope things feel better soon. Never lose that small boy sense of wonder, it's the best thing we have or I think so anyway. I wish it were snowing here.
  2. Virgil's Avatar
    Nice. What's a POS?
  3. skib's Avatar
    Piece of ****.

    FifthElement- thank you very much! You pretty much whacked it on the head- I didn't really know what I was trying to say until I tried to write it down, but I did indeed feel a lot better after I'd written it. I appreciate your sympathy!
    On the topic of snow: this is the earliest I've ever seen snow here! I'll see if I can't get some pics of the next storm.
  4. Virgil's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by skib
    Piece of ****.
    Thanks. I should have realized.

    Hey I heard the playoff baseball game was postponed because of snow.
  5. qimissung's Avatar
    U-m-m-m, I love those fifteen minutes of fantasy. I'm very good at conjuring them myself. I just wish I was as good at resolving my problems!

    So beautifully written that I was in that car too, for a few minutes. I miss the sight of falling snow.
  6. skib's Avatar
    Virgil- Baseball isn't such a great interest to me, so they could have canceled the World Series and I wouldn't know! That is very possible, though. It snowed like crazy here in Fort Collins all night, and if WE get snow, Denver gets six times as much. It was also a fifty degree temperature change within about two days, so it was also dreadfully cold.

    gimmisung- those are oftentimes the best fifteen minutes of my day! I'm glad I was able to get the image across!
  7. The Walker's Avatar
    I loved this skib. All of it...
  8. 1n50mn14's Avatar
    The four letter word is not beautiful!
    While I do find this beautiful, I'm wondering how long it's going to be until I'm stuck in a storm, cursing, not appreciating. So kudos to you, for finding beauty in something I can not.