A Ramble through Smilie Land

A clunking sound deep within me
A churning of gears, digging through my deepest fears.
I'm trying to write a poem.

Hopelessly confused
No longer amused -
Something has stopped the flow.

A drought has come
The words are dammed and I can't find a hole
Where did all the verses go?

Are they here are they there,
Have they disappeared into air?
Someone tell me where!

Transmission faulty. ...

When the dreams have all faded away
like wisps on a windy day
When wishes have never come true.
How could I talk to you?

I stand and watch them play,
always its been this way
around me they sing and dance
and yet Im all alone.

In my bubble of lonliness I stand
Alone with my castle of sand
I watch them laugh and talk. I wish
I could do that.

You turn and come my way
Then there is somthing ...

Today I woke up in a daze,
Butterflies on my lips
Smile in my stomach.

I sang as I drifted through the house
Slid across the floor in socks.
Tap-danced to a soundless song.

Wingless joy blossomed,
Like daffodils in the spring
I couldn't think why,
Until I heard the telephone ring.


18-9-2005

Going round in circles,
Hitting head against the wall.
Not much anything is doing
And my dreams are all too tall.

I would sit in my small corner
Frown at the world go by
But that’s all too much bother,
When I can’t even be arsed to sigh.

Drab melancholic boredom,
Is when the colors all got lost.
Id even contemplate suicide,
If I thought it worth the cost.

Oh the world is so boring ...

Where the tear of the unicorn falls
There rises a golden mist
Guiding us, it leads on
Hinting at utter bliss.

"Tread softly" says the voice
As ethereal maidens dance
Let us not stray from the path
Lest we be homeward bound.

AT the crossroads we must part
He goes on and fades away
And I- I turn back
To face another day.