The Darkness

First of all I want to express my gratitude for everyones thoughtful and supportive comments to this matter. I do apperciate all of which you have said.

I have been in touch with my frined today, and it appears between my talking to him last night, as well as his wife, and one of his other close frineds talking to him, he no longer has the intent and desire to kill himself, of which naturally came as a great releif to me.

So it seems things are going to pull through. ...

Well I am not sure what to think or do. But one of my closest friends just told me that he was going to kill himself. I do not know if he is serious about it, or just speaking in a moment of anger with him it could go either way. But he said he already told his wife he was going to do it and said goodbye to her.

Though I cannot get a straight answer from him, it seems he is just tired of where he is living, he hates it there, and he does not have the money to move somewhere else, ...

For me, this is a sad sad time for true vampire affianado and lovers of the Vampire. I have been fascinated with the vampire for just about as long as I can recall, and now I am in despair that it seems a whole new generation of Vampire fans are going to move in on our turf, but in my book they are just a lot of wannabes and do not have the true essence of the vampire soul.

Of what tragedy in the world of the undead do I speak.

The dreaded and horrible and Stephanie ...

I do not know what happend. I thought the day had gone rather well really for the most part. Nothing occured, there were no real problems or misfortunes, I had all in all enjoyed myself during the day, nothing fancy or speical really happend, but nonetheless things went well enough. But then for no particuarly reason that I can name, I sank down into oblivion. Nothing I can see really triggered it or stired it up, it just fell upon me quite suddenly. I do not know if I would truly say I was depressed ...

Sometimes it is really hard to stay afloat, as I have alluded to in another post a time back, I do tend to have manic depressive tendencies, and well usually I am pretty good at keeping myself pretty even lately it has been a strugle and right now my mind is just sort of driting around disconnected. I have this welling or thoughts and emotions playing within me but I cannot decide on how to express it or the outlet to use. I do not know what I wish to do.

It seems that I am not even ...