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It just hit me that in a few days when my ex moves out will have to learn how to make coffee... we have a machine that just grounds coffee and pours it into your cup and I just love it but he bought it so he takes it so I will have to learn how to make coffee... I think I'll miss the coffee machine the most...

well life is going as normal I am working and doing all the stuff I need to do and trying to make it not to obvious how I can't wait to get him out... it's strange but my first ...

I am so tired now. my ex still hasn't gotten his new apartment and I am so tired of sleeping on the couch and I just want to finish this all so I can start my life again. I need to buy a bed for both me and my boy but I have no place to keep them 'till he's out but I need to buy them before he leaves because we of course need to sleep somewhere... My brother's girlfriend is helping me with the search for a new bed and I just hope I'll find something soon.


I am just really ...

this is my first weekend alone. I'm working so it's ok, but when I got home last night it was so strange to walk into an empty house. I found a Beatles puzzle I bought years ago and spent about 3 hours on it 'till I went to bed. Then for a minuet this morning I felt like I had to go and wake my son up and get him ready for school but then I remembered he's off with his dad. I went to work and I just got home, I think I'll do a bit more of that puzzle tonight.

well I'm making these ...

I have always been a loner and it definetly is by choice. I have always had just one or two very close friends but hardly any contact with other people unless I have to. Living with my boyfriend I had constant companion with a person very different from me and with whom I could share nothing. but now that relationship is over I find a need to chat with my (literally) only friend. the problem is, I am not her only friend.

Thinking about my teenage years I find the best of them being ...

well I think my ex found an apartment, I just hope it will be free soon. there is so much stuff to go through both financial and just stuff. we are gonna have shared custody of the boys, they will be with him every other weekend, it does bother me a bit that he wants to get spock too, he was 5 when we met. but I'm not gonna be mean about it, and I really don't think he'll do it often. I just want him out so I can start over and do things my way.

there is so much I'm gonna change here. ...