I have come to realize that when I write down my thoughts and feeling sometimes in a notebook of my own and sometimes here I confront them and figure out how to react to them. I have also figured out that some things I don't want to admit to people around me is easier to admit here and that is sometimes what I need and want. I have one issue I have never talked about and I don't think I could tell my family about because I feel both embarrassed and disappointed in my self. I will ...