day in a life

Well my second year is over, one more to go and than off to get another degree, hopefully. I really don't like this time of year. I never like attention so my birthday in April was just the start of a very anxious time of year for me. I am always very stressed out for some days before my birthday and I hate the itself. I don't want people around but for some reason everyone wants to see me on that day and visit even though they know I don't like it. I know it's because they care about me but I don't ...

Now this is gonna sound evil maybe but I don't care. I have a really smart friend, she can see things in another light and way I just don't get. She has always written the best essays and gotten the highest marks. Now twice I have gotten a better grade, my last essay I got 8 and she got 7 and in a test I got 7.5 and she got 7. This has done wonders for my self esteem. I didn't think I'd ever get better grades. I have worked very hard on my projects this semester cause I want to get higher grades ...

I am on a Easter break now and my son left to spend a part of the holiday with his dad yesterday, he'll be back on Sunday. I am gonna read as much as possible in these few days alone and work on my small essay for my 'animals in pictures and literature' course. I have been asked more than once about this course so I'm gonna give a small description of it.

It's about animal ethics a study getting more and more room in many departments in universities around the globe. It is very small ...

I have been opening up to myself and certain people around me about the fact that I am so lost in my head. I'm gonna try not to sound as mean and harsh as I did in my last blog cause that conversation has been on my mind for some days now. First of all it has been pointed out to me that I enjoy the 'evil' side more than the 'good'. My son surely doesn't understand why I think Magneto is way cooler than Prof.X (we are watching all the X-men movies again) . I find it funny when people do something ...

I was sitting at a cafe this morning with my brother and we started talking to a guy sitting on the next table. He is studying Christianity and doing his BA. Well he and my brother were talking about some stuff regarding his thesis and I started thinking 'this is a moment when I'm not gonna talk' my brother is very spiritual and meditates every morning and sometimes again later in the day. They were talking about this hole people try to fill with faith and this search for life after death and meaning ...