Dark Muse
11-05-2007, 02:23 AM
Paul seems to be in contradiction of himself and is always trying to find some excuse, or perhaps he does not yet know what he truly wants. But he is constantly going back and forth between first proclaiming his wish to be married, and then doing a complete 360 and suddenly railing about how he could never be wed and does not wish to be tied down to one woman, and will never marry.
He has used this against both Mariam and Clara. First when he was with Mariam he would try and tell her that they could not continue on together because he wished to marry, but they could not marry if they could not be physical with each other. So when Maraim submitted to him and they grew closer, he drew away from her and began to say suddenly he could not be with her because he felt to tied down with her and could not marry and would never marry.
So he ended up with Clara because she was safe, because she is already married but separated from her husband, but then as they began to grow closer together, he begins turning the tables around again, and tells her that he wants to marry, but she does not want to marry him because she refuses to divorce from her husband.
It seems that he is stuck between both his fear of commitment, as well as his not wanting to be truly alone. Whenever he begins to get close to a woman, or when things begin to become serious, he suddenly tries to find some excuse and gets restless and upset within the relationship and draws away, but at the same time, he can never bring himself to just completely break it off. So he tries to keep it going as long as he can while still keeping at bay from him.
He has used this against both Mariam and Clara. First when he was with Mariam he would try and tell her that they could not continue on together because he wished to marry, but they could not marry if they could not be physical with each other. So when Maraim submitted to him and they grew closer, he drew away from her and began to say suddenly he could not be with her because he felt to tied down with her and could not marry and would never marry.
So he ended up with Clara because she was safe, because she is already married but separated from her husband, but then as they began to grow closer together, he begins turning the tables around again, and tells her that he wants to marry, but she does not want to marry him because she refuses to divorce from her husband.
It seems that he is stuck between both his fear of commitment, as well as his not wanting to be truly alone. Whenever he begins to get close to a woman, or when things begin to become serious, he suddenly tries to find some excuse and gets restless and upset within the relationship and draws away, but at the same time, he can never bring himself to just completely break it off. So he tries to keep it going as long as he can while still keeping at bay from him.