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05-09-2006, 06:52 AM
Did this shop ever have a menswear department?
She asked, an immediate family member doing what
all members of my immediate family immediately do,
already
I could feel my throat tightening
It did? But…do you mean this shop or
all of them?
All of them? Really? Or just
some branches?
No time to think of Autumn
or possibilities
No time to think of leaves
or leaving
throat tightening
Please
Adrenally
Please
What does it matter?
And why
do you imagine I would
know
…
If you’re going to talk about anything
You have to talk about it properly, she said
viciously
lying
leaving
no space to talk
properly or not
about hell
forcing an argument
about nothing
We walked around the corner up Broadwick St. Before she came out of the shop I’d been thinking about nonsense, lemonade, good conversation, peace and I thought of my analyst wondering why I had suddenly started to write poetry, realized it might not matter as much as it seemed to if I could just let myself have it and not bother with the silly fight I didn’t want and said
But glass of water men’s jigsaw not
That…no wait…that doesn’t
even make
grammatical
sense
she replied suspiciously
unless…
Banks of the river jumping jack flash
I replied
And my whole body
in the cold Autumn street
felt warm
And it all meant something – really
as I found out in analysis later
She asked, an immediate family member doing what
all members of my immediate family immediately do,
already
I could feel my throat tightening
It did? But…do you mean this shop or
all of them?
All of them? Really? Or just
some branches?
No time to think of Autumn
or possibilities
No time to think of leaves
or leaving
throat tightening
Please
Adrenally
Please
What does it matter?
And why
do you imagine I would
know
…
If you’re going to talk about anything
You have to talk about it properly, she said
viciously
lying
leaving
no space to talk
properly or not
about hell
forcing an argument
about nothing
We walked around the corner up Broadwick St. Before she came out of the shop I’d been thinking about nonsense, lemonade, good conversation, peace and I thought of my analyst wondering why I had suddenly started to write poetry, realized it might not matter as much as it seemed to if I could just let myself have it and not bother with the silly fight I didn’t want and said
But glass of water men’s jigsaw not
That…no wait…that doesn’t
even make
grammatical
sense
she replied suspiciously
unless…
Banks of the river jumping jack flash
I replied
And my whole body
in the cold Autumn street
felt warm
And it all meant something – really
as I found out in analysis later